Terror On Shoreline Drive

Did the title get you? Maybe I’m exaggerating, but it sure feels like terror.

Why is there terror?

Because tonight I have a DATE.

It’s my second one in a year and a half.

I’ve been looking at why I am so terrorized. I will tell you why:

• because I think I have to be a certain way
• because I can’t be myself because then I will say the wrong thing
• because my real self is not ok
• because my real self is not always funny
• because I might talk about something gross
• because I don’t know what to do
• because I don’t know how to talk to guys
• because I am in a panic and won’t be able to talk
• because I don’t know what to wear
• because maybe he wants someone really thin
• because what if he thinks I am too fat, too high maintenance, boring, anything
• because it’s in 3.5 hours and I am starting to feel sick🛌
• because my stomach hurts – it’s cramping
• because it’s going to rain
• because I don’t know what to do
• because ……..

I think that’s the end. I’m sure there’s more but you get the point. I’m in a panic thinking I have to be a certain way and can’t be myself.

I think it’s from ALL THE YEARS of dating before I got married. My sister would tell me don’t say this, don’t say that, do this, do that. I remember being so nervous trying to remember everything she said that I was basically a wreck.

So here I go again, doing this to myself this time.👎

This is what I am going to create for tonight (assuming there is no tornado the sky is seriously getting dark and there are tornado warnings):

• I can relax
• I can be present👼
• I can get to know this man
• I can be myself

If we like each other, we will meet again. If we don’t, it will have been a nice evening. Doesn’t that sound wonderful?💥

Here’s the only thing. Can you please tell my stomach that? It is still cramping.🤦‍♀️

Thanks for listening.

PS I just found the emojis. I love them.