There were a few women’s issues I wanted to discuss for a long time. I finally got courageous in this video.
It’s a little long because I added stuff about trying to do my new web site at the end. Oh well. It’s hard to stop talking when I’m on a roll.
I was looking at some educational videos today. They are my homework for my coaching session tomorrow. I started panicking. Maybe I shouldn’t have hired this woman.
I was so confronted that I had to take lie down on the couch and BREATHE. I allowed myself to experience the terror. I followed the train of thoughts, feelings, emotions, and body sensations. They ended up back at two young art incidents and then even further back to when I was born.
When I got up, I went back to the web site and tried to follow the directions. I tried to set up my new web site. I stopped. I don’t know which security to buy, which back-up shit I need, etc. NO CLUE!
I will let her help me tomorrow. Here’s what I have to say about it:
I HATE THAT SHIT!! I HATE NOT KNOWING what I am doing. I hate not being able to make progress. I like to get shit done. I hate asking for help. GRRRRRRRRRRR!
OK – thank you. That was a 5 year old tantrum. I think there is more……..
I HATE IT!!!!!! I think I should be able to whip through everything. I HATE RESEARCH and reading directions. I’d rather someone tell me what to do. Tell me and I’ll do it. I’ll do it fast.
Just don’t make me figure it out.
OK, that could be 6 years old.
OK, I feel a little better. It’s now 5:11 PM. Where did the day go? The problem with working from home is that the couch is right there. All it needs is a pillow, a blanket, and my body and it’s the perfect place for my nap.
Actually, my first nap was on the floor by the window. I opened the window so I could get some Vitamin D. It was definitely cold, but very refreshing.
It’s a good thing I don’t work from home every day. I’d be well-rested, but probably wouldn’t ever make any money from sales.
OK, gotta go. Thanks for listening.
Have a great night!!!