Growing Where It’s Uncomfortable

I never thought passed the point of publishing my book in too much detail.

I never thought of the body sensations that feel like I am in mortal danger.

“I’m worried about what people will think,” I told a friend.

“Well, you should have thought of that before you published the book,” she answered.

That’s not the point. I’m not complaining. I’m just noticing what I am feeling.

What’s important to me is to go through this fear to get to freedom.

This has been my life in every area:

• Worrying about what people think.

It’s just the construct that my brain made for me. To keep me safe and from being hurt.

(Well, hopefully I am not in actual danger because I published this.)

I am right now breathing through the tight chest and fast heart rate. Breathe, breathe, breathe. Some label it as anxiety. I am not labeling the body sensations. I am trying to experience them. Instead of resisting or making them wrong. So I can get to the freedom on the other side.

My Assessment:

I am doing GREAT. I really am.

ANOTHER TOPIC:

I am also going passed where I would normally stop with this gosh darn web site. (watch the video)

I can see that I want to say:

• I can’t do this
• I wasn’t born able to do design stuff
• I don’t know how
• I can’t
• I’m not put together for this kind of work

These are not the truth. They are just what I made up.

I am very proud to say that I am doing it anyway. Action is a lot easier than listening to my brain tell me I can’t.

I really am proud. Great strides today after a week of recuperation (my back), and mental discomfort about the book.

I am happy to report I am in a much clearer, healthier place. Because I allowed myself to be however I was this week. I accepted it (well, most of the time, anyway). I took care of myself, listened to my body and mind, and took it easy.

And I’m on my way to greater freedom.

Have a great day. I have to get back to my web site DESIGN.

Thanks for listening.