I was woken up at 3:00 AM by my daughter’s text.
“I’m not going to make my deadline for your book cover. I need to extend it. And my teacher says that it’s not good to work with family.”
I couldn’t sleep so I went to the gym. I used my upset to transform my disappointment and distrust paradigm using the Untethered Soul’s recommendation. I speak about it on the video below.
But that’s nothing. The big one:
I ran into the guy I used to call Psycho. He wanted to talk to me. Uh oh, I thought.
Guess what he wanted to do?
He wanted to apologize for lying to me, being a coward, and treating me badly. He’s been trying to find me for the last few weeks. I had actually seen him driving around. Weird, huh.
Of course I had the tissues out.
I thanked him. We discussed our relationship and the amazing connection and electricity we had had. It’s still there, but circumstances are not what they need to be for us to be together. I would say he’s stuck in his own paradigm.
Will they ever be right? I don’t know. It’s not my problem to worry about I keep telling myself. If they are, and he comes to find me, I’ll deal with all the associated issues then.
For now, I have another date tonight. That’s my REAL life. Not my fantasy life.
I suggested we meet at 5:00 PM. That’s my speed. In bed by 8:00.
He wants to meet at 7:30 PM. Ugh. It’s only 5:42 and I am ready for bed. I guess I’ll have to rally. (Yawn). Tick tock. Tick tock.
DATE UPDATE: The guy last night kept talking about his ex-wife and what a hoarder she was. He spent the night showing me pictures of her mess.
“Here’s another one. Can you believe that?”
“Here’s another one. Look at that.”
Yawn. And he told alot of really long jokes. Not the worst night I’ve spent, but one I don’t need to repeat. I couldn’t wait for one joke to end before the next one started to make my exit. I wanted to get home and put on my pajamas. Not a good sign.
OK, here’s the video.
Again, it’s emotional. So if you’re not up for that, skip it. Have a great night.
Thanks for listening. I’ve gotta go get dolled up.