I Got Nothing To Say

I have nothing to say. So, let’s see what my fingers start typing.

I’ve been reading some great stuff. Brene Brown’s Daring Greatly, and continuing to read Speaking Being and the Michael Singer book (blanking on name).

Not much time for fiction. I’m going on a trip and I’m thinking I will load up on some brainless happy ending books. We will see. Sometimes I just can’t find any that call to me.

Brene’s book talks about shame, shame resilience and vulnerability. It says women’s biggest thing is how they look. For men, they can’t look weak.

What I’m committed to is people being their “real” selves. Not the self with the mask that wants to look good and do everything perfectly.

That’s why I like Brene Brown. She admits when she makes a mistake or feels embarassed or ashamed.

I was also listening to Amanda Palmer be interviewed by Tim Ferriss. She also talked about being vulnerable and discussed things like miscarriages, death and struggles. I think it is personally refreshing to hear people be real.

For me, personally, what’s in the way of being real is being liked, not getting people upset, and thinking I’m just crazy. Lately I’ve been putting myself first instead of placating others, and I have to be honest, it’s uncomfortable. But it’s also liberating.

I am currently struggling with names for my book, the tag line, and what to do for my next speaking gig. I’m not suffering, mind you, I’m struggling or grappling. So don’t be giving me advice on how not to suffer (a pet peeve). I’m not suffering.

I’m in the inquiry. And enjoying being in the not knowing and discovery. When I can let go of that I have to know, it’s quite enjoyable.

I’m also late to meet a friend so I have to go. And hope that my chicken on the grill is ready by the time I have to leave.

It’s a beautiful day on my deck. I am truly blessed to have found this beach cottage. I thank God for the peace and tranquility it brings to my life.

Hope you are having a wonderful Labor Day.

Thanks for listening.