I am not good at waiting……..
I am trying to accept myself for my lack of patience.
As I said in the video, I am trying to have Mindful Self-Compassion. Speaking of which, this was a blog that was included in an eletter sent out by the Center for Mindful Self-Compassion. Their website is: https://centerformsc.org/ in case you want to check them out. It is a wonderful non-profit organization.
BACK TO ME:
When I don’t think I should be a certain way or think a certain way or look a certain way, I can sometimes get into a downward spiral of thinking into the “left” side of life. I have discovered many ways to get back to the “right” side again. That’s what I write and blog and record about.
Sometimes it’s easy to get out and sometimes it’s hard.
My newest thing is to not resist what I am feeling. I am going to try to not resist how I am feeling right now – I feel like I’m going to explode and my body hurts……….be right back……….
OK, I just allowed myself to cry. Really loud with body wracking sobs. It felt good. I feel exhausted, but much freer. I am using my negativity to hopefully inspire others. Share, say what can’t be said, and don’t resist your experience. These are my tools for my exploration into creating a life you love – out here in conversation.
BACK TO ME – MORE THOUGHTS:
I really loved the fantasy I was living for the last 4 weeks. You’ll have to watch the video to hear more about it.
My instincts were screaming and I was completely feeling nutso. As you can see if you read my book, fantasies are one of the ways I numb myself. Enter a fantasy and live there for a while, even if it’s not real. I can really experience happiness that way. It’s fun, but eventually, I crash back into the real world when I see I am kidding myself. Like I did this morning.
It’s been a frustrating and emotional day. Hope yours was more peaceful.
Thanks for listening.