Feeling Crazy

Well, I got some weird stuff out on this one.

I can’t believe how afraid I am to speak up to these on line dating men.

What the hell am I afraid of?

They don’t like me?

They don’t respond?

Or that I’m just a nasty, picky, high maintenance bitch who can never be pleased.

Is what they are doing normal and it’s me who’s weird?

Or do I just attract the weirdos?

I also get embarrassed for them in case they are sincere. I just can’t tell.

I don’t want to admit that I can’t keep them straight. Also, I don’t know if I like them. How can you tell on a text?

I’m also being a people pleaser and trying to get them to like me even though some are boring me and definitely text too many paragraphs.

It’s just such a freaking weird set up. Talking to people you don’t know.

Who are the players? Who are the sincere?

Are their pictures 1000 years old?

I have no idea about any of it.

Whatever…….Time to go out.

I’m just not loving feeling so nervous all the time.

Oh, I’m trying to get it right, aren’t I? I think that’s it. Well, there is no right. So I can relax. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

Gotta go.

Thanks for listening.