Am I Brave?

Do I post the video I just did on Facebook?

Am I going to be “comfortable or courageous” per Brene Brown?

Good question. I’ll let you know in a few minutes. Let me get some coffee…….

OK I did it. Not sure if I did it right, but I allowed my butterflies as I pressed the button. I posted it to my story and then I think I posted it to the regular site. Who knows?

Whatever!

I gave up getting it right.

Here’s what I posted:

I posted it as premier on my YouTube channel because I was tired of hearing that first one whenever I went to my site.

I’m watching my thoughts change to:

• you don’t now what you are doing
• you shouldn’t have done that
• what an idiot
• LOSER

And I am replacing them with:

• I AM COURAGEOUS
• I AM A PIONEER

WOW! That’s a miracle!!! WHOOPEE!!

Also, I signed up for a free webinar today on public relations. At first I thought I was dumb. They have a great marketing mechanism – I found them on instragram. I know they are going to want me to pay for their services. I fell for it with the last two companies I “tried out” and had a hard time cancelling and getting my money back. It was a pain in the butt.

But then I had a realization.

I don’t have to sign up. I don’t have to give them my money. I am in control, NOT THEM. I don’t need to be a powerless victim. Why did I think I did?

I remembered 5 years ago when I WAS IN CONTROL:

When I got divorced, I took advantage of the free half hour that many lawyers will give for free. I learned what I needed to. I said no to the $25,000 retainer. I didn’t need or want to pay it. I didn’t have a lot of money, and what little I had scrounged during my marriage, I wanted to KEEP.

I did my divorce for under $500. I did pay a financial mediator $1000, but that was totally worth it. It helped up divide up our assets. I think I might have had the least expensive divorce in human history. And I came out unbelievably well. People can’t believe what I did – myself – just paying for 20 minute increments at a time.

So, in 34 minutes I am going to learn about public relations. FOR FREE!! I AM IN CONTROL!!! I don’t have to fall for THEIR PITCH!!

I’ll keep you posted.

I am excited to be the new, courageous, NOT people pleasing me.

Happy New Year’s! I really do FEEL like it’s a NEW DECADE!!

Thanks for listening.